FeELing SaD n LoNELy!!!!

I'm feeling sad....for this past few months.???? Wonder why??? 

It's all about commitment..sakit hati if person yang u really love and care tak mau ada commitment dengan u.. What for?? What we called this relationship if there's no commitment.  U said "LOVE".."MISS"..."CANT LIVE WITHOUT U".."UR THE ONLY ONE".."U R DIFFERENT FROM THE OTHERS"...and banyak lagi sweet words yang confirm boleh buat hati dan perasaan cair.  Tapi apa tujuan sebenar relationship yang dibina bertahun-tahun lamanya..?? Pernahkah si dia terfikir akan janji-janji yang pernah ditabur sebelum ini.  Pengorbanan yang dibuat selama ini...totally sia-sia..  I called this KEJAM..  U cant just say "NO..not now my dear" to the one you really love.. That's what u said.. And u cant just say.."i ve a lot more things to settle then thinking bout COMMITMENT".....this is UNFAIR.. In this world, we cant wait for things to happen..we have to go for it.  Allah tidak akan mengubah nasib umat yang tidak mahu berusaha mengubah nasib mereka...

My dearie..

This is difficult for me.. I dont know what to do..to think..and dont even know what decision to make.. When i think about breaking up... It is like separating my soul from my body.  It hurts too much.. U said i need to wait more..be patient..and everything will be just fine.  But how much more?? How many years more do you need?  How many years more i ve to wait? Is it worth it for me waiting? Or u just saying nice sweet things so that i ll forget about it.

I still dont believe this is the end of a relationship.... Still cant believe it!!!