LelAki is UNpredictABLE!!!!!

Raya dah pun berlalu.. today is Raya yang ke 5.. Well..sad but true, even on hari raya itself there's no call from someone yang i really hope for..huhuhu.  I dont know.. maybe there's no more rindu.. or no more maaf.. Entahla..sedih memikirkannya.  What i'm waiting for?? Ignore it? Senang la u all cakap.."just forget about it"..hati ni sapa yang tahu. Aduh..sakitnya tuhan je yang tahu.. It's hari raya ok.. So sad... In 8 years..this is the first time i didnt received HARI RAYA CALLED from him.

Well...maybe it's true..there's no more hope for this relationship.. I've make my decision but not him...he didnt make any decision at all..he left all the things behind..dont want to take all the responsibilities.  He avoid to make the decision..OMG...i cant take this anymore.  I'm so damn weak..!!

But..is it semua guys pun sama macam ni... U tell the girls u care..but u never did anything to show them that u really care for them. I dont understand.. Kaum Adam ni is very Unpredictable... Do you think i should go on with another relationship...ohh..please help me.. I dont want to make the same mistake twice.  Even u know a guy who really good for u and he seem like sincere to u....but do you think he's the one for u?  Or he just same like ur former X.. I'm scared to take another risk.. It is not easy..giving commitment and flirting is two different things.. I can flirt...but right now i'm afraid to give commitment bcoz lelaki sekarang ni memang unpredictable.. susah nak jangka tindakan mereka.  Sometimes apa yang kita rasa tak sama dengan apa yang mereka rasa or fikirkan.  Adakalanya apa yang kita interpret tak sama dengan apa yang guys interpret... 

Entah la babe....perkara yang berlaku ada hikmah disebaliknya.  Itu adalah ujian dari ALLAH.. I mesti terima hakikat..redha dengan apa yang berlaku..

Notes:  Should i give myself a second chance??????